Saturday, March 3, 2012

63:365 Done

So many months of holding it together, coupled with the intense preparation of Stitches, with nearly no time to myself in between Stitches and starting my work week, has led to a day of crying, a first for me at the shop. Today my resentment towards the fact that I depend on other humans to help run my business peaked. The fact that every time an employee decides they no longer want to do their work, and that I am left with the work, that all others can walk away, and I can't, is so overwhelming and can be so lonely. And that I as a business owner have chosen this is...to bring this feeling into words is nearly impossible due to the overwhelming nature of my anger and sadness. If I could just do it myself, I would. But at this point, I can't. And for that fact, there is no photo.

I know it will get better. Just know, that this is all part of the story.

4 comments:

Sonya Philip said...

Hug. And sympathy.

The "colored" Museum said...

Go on and let it all out!!!

cauchy09 said...

{{hugs}}

jdawdris said...

Big hug - your build up to Stitches was Amazing. At least she stayed through that? I think you are amazing and doing what so many wish they could leap and do, but can't (self-imposed or not) I also admire you keeping true to the 365, through all the ups, and downs. Hang in there.